Thursday, April 26, 2007
GOLD and proud of it. we all believe people have eyes to see and brains to think for themselves what is good, and what's not. i felt unjustified because what i thought was horrible, earned them a honours. they so don't deserve it. but who cares anymore now. dance is subjective. and i still believe sajc dance is dancing not for anyone, but ourselves. we gave our all, and we didnt regret. nothing mattered anymore, when we know we made an impact on others when we danced. when we know that we sent people tearing, and hair standing, and zaki's praising us that we made him proud on that UCC stage, nothing mattered anymore.
so today's a day of crying and tearing, because of unfairness, unjustification. but i guess, it really really doesn't really matter anymore.
many thanks to zaki for his wonderful choreography and the trust he have in us to take on such a mature piece of music. thanks to miss wee, who drilled us so much on our techniques and make us look so professional on stage. thanks to miss tan, mrs chia, miss lee for taking care of us this period, and always being with us. thanks to all seniors who came back to help us before and on that day itself. thanks to all who kept sa dance in their prayers. thanks to the school for being so supportive. thanks to everyone who sent their best wishes and encouragments to us. thanks to god, who made everything possible.
thanks, thanks, thanks. (:
come watch rapture, 21st july 2007 @ mediacorp. tickets selling through SA dancers only. come and see what we are made of. :DDDD
i love SAJC Dance. one family unbroken.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
25th APRIL! DANCE SYF! :DD i went to school with a fever and really bad sore throat. survived the first hour. and before i knew it, when i started dancing, i felt okay and everything was gone.
dance is my remedy. :DD
today is a happy day! practice at the hall before the competition was fantastic! everything was in place i thought! emotions, steps, blocking. it felt good. and we all felt ready for it.
then we had all the buslte, rushing for make-up etc. everyone's like panicking cause mrs chia's always going, "__ MORE MINUTES DANCERS!" so intimidating. and, she kept saying 10 more minutes. its like the 10 minutes never comes. lol. that was quite hillarious. ANYWAY, despite of all the bustle, i managed to snap some pictures! :DD
amandawn! lols!
MANDA!
weirdy and chin chow! (:
before the competition, when we were warming up and waiting for our turn at UCC, i bet all SA's dancers were feeling super uber nervous la. i feel it in the atmosphere. backstage, when were wear supposed to get to the right hand side of the stage, i was holding nettie's hand cause apparently both of us were like so nervous.
BAM. we went on stage and do what we practised! 6 months, for just that 6-7 minutes on stage. but, i'm telling you, the 6 months is all worth it. ((: we all felt good after the item! miss tan said it was hair raising, zaki said we made him proud on stage. :DDDDDDDDDDDDD major happiness.
actually, i don't mind not knowing the results. cause this is all i need i guess. but on the other, i would wanna know where SAJC dance stand in Singapore. international judges, standard raised. i'm opening my heart and accepting whatever that comes my way. because i know we'll all give each other support, like how we gave before SYF. ((:
then back to the studio, it was more cam whoring. kris even gave us a time-limit for cam whoring. LOL.
J1s!
WEIRDY VEEKAY!
and then it was PASTA MANIA with the darlings, dawn the prawn and manda! amanda left after dinner to study at home! while dawn and i went spotlight and didn't want to leave. typical. :D
dawn with her new bag. haha! the mirror's dirty!
RESULTS TOMORROW. dancers, see you around screaming tomorrow!
i love dance. :D i know it and i know it.
do your best, and let got do the rest. :)) we did.
Monday, April 23, 2007
HOHO.
thanks to those who wished me happy birthday and those who made my birthday such a special birthday, one that is full of so many surprises. if i didn't remember you, let me know! BIG thanks to nicole twin, dale, jingfa, kaishing, jj, cuen, caihui, wenshan, junyong, hong jie, tianlong, pohmeng, lothars, N371, i-ming, gj, cherylnn, shuhan, andrea, stephanie lee, casherine, vivian, calanthea, peiyu, michelle ma, michelle ng, kok kin, lionel, abel, glenn, daryl, aaron dao, wei shing, wei kang, ying jie, 07s11(PAE), kenn, daniel chua, tong neng, jonathan chan, 07s26(JAE), jan, eunice, heidi, sarene, alex cheng, jillian, minghan, joel ong, chuhong, theresa, jia yun, almeric, matheus, wai mun, shuqian, martin, xinmin, nicholas wong, wan joo, jiehao, sijia, kenbin, geri, amanda lim(4e4), dawn bey, amanda lim(sajc), germaine, sajc dance seniors, whoever who wished me on friendster.
today's a happy day i guess. although there's dance at UCC from 6 to 8 pm. but i felt that my day was well spent. i started my day feeling neutral. but my dear friends in school made my day so special. (: thanks guys. i so love the 'cake-fight' although i thought i almost killed all of you all. haha. and i love the BIG card that you all made!
my personal zoo. jonathan gave it to me. LOL. i like the elephant and cow.
trackback! on friday night, i almost died when i reach home from cellgroup. at an unearthy hour at about 12.30 am, 5 people were like hiding in my room. and when i opened the door, they screamed,"SURPRISE!" thanks to all of them, i threw my bag somewhere and fell to the ground. say hello to my friends, nicole, dale, jingfa, kaishing and jj. wtb. but i was so happy la. as in, i was surprised. and i felt very loved. ironic, but yeah. you get the point. they got me the crumpler bag i've been eyeing on. mastermind: NICOLE LOU KAY LI. lols. thanks everyone.
and and and. i had my first birthday cake on sunday! dearest cuen baked for me chocolate brownie! it's so delicious i'm telling you, you'll be back for more. it's so pretty and it's a pity that i don't have my camera with me that day. but i love it! (:
and, as i said, i had a cake war today. thanks for stuffing cream up into my nostrils and making me so dirty and sticky people. lol. but i had fun. and i felt loved and encouraged. thanks guys! constance is all set to fight!
yeah. fight, how to when i'm running a fever at this point of time. LOL. so contradictory. i think UCC is cursed. everytime i come back from there, i fall sick. so i predict that i will on thursday. but i'm so gonna drag my ass to school, even if i were to die there, to hear the SYF's results. yeah man. cool. 2 more days. LET'S GO DANCE! we'll make it. :DD
thanks again to everyone from the bottom of my heart.
constance is loved.and.. i thought, hah.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
i just need to blog.
i have been rather stressed out recently, due to a lot of commitments, pressures and expectations. time is running fast away. and seriously speaking, i'm feeling very afraid. dance has been hectic. and i understand why. i totally do. but it's this contradiction that i face. the heart is willing, but the flesh is weak. there is just too much expectations from people around and i'm feeling the pressure. i know this is inevitable. i know pressure improves people. but i am worn out. inside out. i know this will be temporary. and i will press on. definitely. i really hope i'll be able to make time for my loved ones. i don't want to compromise anything, be it friendships or my relationship with god. sometimes, i feel i need to break away. because i really feel like i'm going through this viscious cycle that i will never get out of. and this sucks.
HOLD ON, PRESS ON CONSTANCE.i just need an outlet. thanks to those people who were standing by me all this while , no matter whether you tried cheering me up or if you listened to my rantings and complaints. you all know who you are. thanks, from the bottom of my heart.
SYF's is in like 22 days. 25th april=d day. i really pray with all my heart that everything will go on smoothly.
COME ON FELLOW DANCERS! WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER. AND WE WILL WORK TOGETHER TO DO NOT ONLY THE SCHOOL, BUT OURSELVES PROUD! JUST 22 MORE DAYS. LET'S KEEP ON PERSEVERING. WE CAN DO IT. :))life is not a bed of roses. but i would very much want to plant my roses now.
i know and i know and i know that hardwork pays off.
"Where'd You Go?" - Fort MinorWhere'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along but the trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot
Workin' my day around the call
But when I pick up I don't have much to say
So, I want you to know it's a little f*ed up
That I'm stuck here waiting at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever
That you've been gone
Please come back home...
You know the place where you used to live
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile
But now, you only stop by every once and a while
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doin' fine
I plan to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say
And I'll tell you
I want you to know it's a little f*ed up
That I'm stuck here waiting at times debating
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever
That you've been gone
Please come back home...
I want you to know it's a little f*ked up
That I'm stuck here waiting, no longer debating
Tired of sitting and hating and making these excuses
For why you're not around
And feeling so useless
It seems one thing has been true all along
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone
I guess I've had it with you and your career
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever
That you've been gone
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
and i really remember everything...
GOLD and proud of it. 
